I miss food.
The thing is, I’m not really hungry, but, I just miss food.
I feel like me and food were getting into an unhealthy pattern in our relationship. We were bringing each other down, I was abusing food, and food was fighting back with a muddled complexion, low energy levels, and chub (a primo storage site for toxins!). I came to food when I was emotional, stressed, or bored and restless. This is not a healthy relationship pattern! We needed time apart.
And so now I have no food.
Haven’t eaten in a week now, and I’ve figured quite a few things on this “break” me and food have taken. I feel like I’ve been cleaning not only my physical body from toxins, but also my act when it comes to the bad habits I’ve formed. In this time-out from food, I’ve had time to think about what I’ve been doing to my body and mind when I treat food irresponsibly.
And I’ve learned my lesson! Really I have!
I was taking food for granted.
The sharp impact of teeth against the taut skin of an apple. An explosion of moisture and flavor, the sugars a tree made to….
WHOA.
So I just realized that I didn’t know for sure why trees make fruit. At least, why so sweet and delectable, each fruit tree in it’s own style and flavor?? I know fruit holds seeds, but is the sugar helpful in getting the seeds dispersed somehow?
Well yes it is. Fruit is exploiting us to spread their seeds. In other animals it’s a simple in and out, but with humans, we go so far as to plant huge crops and bend over backwards to make fruit happy!
This reminds me of Michael Pollan’s awesome TED lecture.
You know, I didn’t realize that food is just as dependent as I am on it in this relationship. This is a whole new level of my relationship with food that I have been taking for granted, forget rushing to food itself already!
I think I may still need more time apart to really process all this…3 more days of master cleanse…thank god!
PS-Mom is back! She had a mere slip, not a fall! It makes such a huge difference to have a partner, I couldn’t have imagined. I got anxiety-”hungry” the minute I was without her, but managed to drink tea instead of giving in to a craving.
